success?

i guess im in the middle of success?
got job offer.. very nice job.. very nice salary..
send me to singapore in next three yearswhere i wanna stay..
offer me master degree as well.. everything is so nice..
but i havnt got the offer letter.. everything seems to be in my plan.. which seems so weird..
however, besides my family that feel proud.. who else that will share this honor with me?
feeling that although i have the honor.. i feel so lonely.. because i have nobody to share with..
who is the one that is gonna accompany me til my last day on earth?
looking backward.. found out that im kinda lonely.. throughout these few years in United states..
money ? is what im seeking all time since i come here..
i dun feel like growing up now.. i dunno why.. one reason is im still young? 22 only..
but everyone thinks that im 25 or 26.. coz i never think or act like 22..
that seems that im an abnormal now..
haiz haiz..
now i just want to be normal..
dun want to be special..