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hmm..
sometimes it isnt so good to have too much free time..
the laziness will invade the whole body..
and soon the fats grow and grow..

hmm..
too much free time makes me more unhealthy..
i started dotaing again..
and seems like my skills get more sux right now..
or the players improved?

hmm..
need to pay some times to do some useful stuffs..
may go back drawing again..
i hope i still can draw..
but seems that my patience limit has decreased..

hmm..
gonna learn some music..
which i have wished for decades..
but laziness ruined the beautiful idea..
please go away the laziness..

haiz..

im wondering why some ppl like to speak in unpleasant way..
they love to do so.. or just that it has become their habit?
祸从口出.. dont they know that?
if they change the way they speak.. they may get a respectful response..
why they have to say others stupid or what.. when others do not the things that they think..?
some ppl have the bearable patience to face what they say..
but there is always the limit..
what will happen neither one could predict..
but i guess it will be bad thing..
looking back..
thinking bout..
is that every unhappy matter all triggered by our own stupid way of speaking??
in fact..
that's why i always keep silent..
even though i wanna say sth..
i still keep silent.. coz i know watever i say.. some ppl may think im bullshiting and respond in impolite way..
i rather keep silent.. to avoid any of these.. and keep to myself..
haiz..

=)

i missed last few days' blogs..
i will summarize all into one here..
hmm.. my cousin has determined her fashion brand name..
Kel & Mel.. sounds great?
no this fashion brand yet by searching thru net.. but i dunno if there is any this brand name on the street( know wat i mean?)..^_^
and.. i earn quite a lot on thursday.. business's good.. but yesterday.. business's sux..
then suddenly.. the boss said.. wat was my phone num?? next time we can call u back to work again.. im wondering what that means..
actually i have the prediction that i will be fired.. but not so soon..
i said they are jibe yang already before they took over the restaurant..
now the jibe yangs really fired me so suddenly.. should have given me early notice or sth so that i can find a new job early..
fortunately.. yesterday after i was fired.. i went to sch.. there was a job fair.. and i had applied..
they responsed and gave me a position.. probably.. but need to get the food card done 1st.. i hope they keep their promises.. at least.. hei po is better than the foo chow guys from china.. im a foo chows too.. but different than them..
talk bout some happy stuffs..
my niece have been given birth on thursday.. 7/23/2009 i just saw her pic last night.. she is cute and has round round face.. but.. gonna mold her into beauty when she grows up.. gonna pull her nose more often so that thin and long.. lol.. well.. all these my third sis and i cant offer any help.. we just giv some energy support.. =~~( (maybe next few years after we go back we can..)
i become so free suddenly.. nothing to do.. start mapling.. lvl 29 already in 2 days.. haiz.. gonna find some jobs to do in next few weeks..

=)

today i just knew that my cousin.. melisa won the first runner-up in miss model malaysia competition.. im kinda proud of her.. not only because of her success in the miss model malaysia competition.. but also her dreams and ambitions.. maybe not much ppl knows that.. she represented malaysia to attend a competition in china.. tats delightful stuff to hear bout..
now she is planning to work out a new fashion brand and design.. but of coz.. obstacles are always there during the beginning.. we need time, efforts and public responses to determine a name and path of the designs.. time will prove everything.. keep it up..=)

hmm..

today my lecturer scaled all the marks..
too bad that he scaled mine as B..
but good that he still did that because..
my marks are on the border line to C..
hmm.. i did badly on test 1..
i dun understand why.. maybe lack of study..
work too much and have not enof time for that subject..
i think that mechanics of materials are kinda tough for me..
i hardly understand the concepts and theories in the book..
in contrast i feel that dynamics are a lot easier..
but this went against everyone's usual thought..
coz "most" ppl think that dynamics are very very much difficult than mechanics of materials..
watever.. i hope i could score an A for my dynamics..
at least pull up the cgpa..

time..

time is kinda short..
wrong..!!
time never stops..
just we are slow..
that makes us feel that time is short..

i wasted the whole afternoon..
arrived at working place..
but someone was there substituting me..
good.. i let her took over my job today..
i rather went back home sleep and study at night..
tomorrow is the third exam of dynamics..
wondering if i can do it well..
but at least i know that if i dint study..
i have zero chance to score well..

clock's non-stop tickling..
its slow when u stare at it..
but when u find out it is slow..
u have wasted few minutes..
so.. don hesitate to do a thing..
or else u may regret for that..
as i am..

hi..

kinda long time that i did not blog..
i duno why i have the feeling to split out something here today..
even though i dun have plenty of time to use for right now..
hmm.. im gonna move out from my sister's house soon..
and will share a room with a friend from malaysia..
this is just the beginning..
my life gets packed everyday..
work study exercise..
but the day is unforgettable..
i still get used to the habits of asking u why no online..
why so late sleep.. urging u to sleep early..
but everything stops when i remembered the day..
that day.. is the worse day for me..
even though its my birthday..
a very tough decision..
a very cruel matter..
a very harsh circumstance..
for me coz i have to keep my smiles in front of everyone who wishes me..
thinking for long period of time..
knowing that it hurts u v v badly..
not only u but me either..
i have to make the decision early..
no more innocent n fairy thinking..
everything's easy to be exclaimed.. but not everyone manages to do..
if everything's as good as what we think.. no more ppl suffer..
heaven's around.. but hell always appears wherever heaven is..
the relationship could not bear the obstacles..
its not so easy as wat u think..
early decision promises u freedom..
hope u enjoy the freedom well..
in fact.. not because my love decreases..
but the reality sets us apart..
u may not be able to understand all these..
i dun force u to understand..
i hope u grow.. and be free..
ur ever deepest memories and love i put..
future may not we share together.. but great memories we did have be4..
thank you.. and take good care..