hidden love

hidden love..
that i can never confess to u..
that i can never show to u..

hidden love..
that tortures me so hard..
that kills me without death..

hidden love..
that you cant see clearly..
that you wont understand my feeling..

hidden love..
that keeps a bond between you and me..
that remains a deep feeling from me for u..

hidden love..
will no longer be exposed..
will forever be vanished in future..

My feelings tonight

bad feelings come again..
i feel ignored..
whenever i sing..
i will sing to myself..
i will never sing to others..
who have no sincerity to hear..
haiz only comes from my mind tonight..
msg others in msn..
some have no reply..
or some have super slow response..
wat would you feel at that moment??
maybe im too selfish-minded..
maybe they have hatred my bothersome..
maybe they have their own things to do..
maybe they have their own frens to hang out..
maybe they have their dears to stick with..
and I.. the one who was ignored..
emoing alone in the deep night..

barcelona night

a night in barcelona..
with a group of 15..
crowding around..
drinking vodka..
mixing with coke..
dancing around..
shaking bodies..
sticking together..
hugging..
kissing..
taking advantages..
a terrible and wasteful night..
i was crazy too..
non stop dancing, locking, popping..
after the influence of the alcohol..
feel fun at 1st..
but found that it is really worthless..
i feel bit emo bout tat..
after everything's over..
without any reason..
feel like doing something bad to u..
as moon's always staring at me in the sky..
like you are by my side..
but i forget u for a little moment..

wonder by a rusty old man

Dust is accumulating..
Air is Suffocating..
Im deteriorating..

laying on the bed..
looking forward for you..
missing non stop you..

meditating bout memorable time..
whispering for your name..
demanding for your love..

it is not the reality..
it is not following my will..
it is just a dream..

inspiration from the moon

in the middle of the night..
i looked up to the sky..
i saw a star sparkling at me..
i know..
it is you..
u r smiling at me..
whenever i saw the star..
you will come to my mind..
i know..
im never in your heart..
because others have taken away all your soul..
i isolated myself..
to bless u forever love..

my miserable feeling..

u r just standing in front of me..
but ur heart is ten thousand miles from mine..
it is unbelievable far distances..
u stand in front of me..
but u never know that i love u..

now u r far from me..
but my heart is ever-lasting thinking of u..
it is unexplainable gruesome feelings..
i imagine u are by my side..
but i know it wont become a reality..

u do look at me..
but i know im nothing for u..
it is unbearable flames of pain..
i don wan to lose u..
I will put u in my deepest part of my heart..
that are unable to be erased..
until the death..

An old man's deepest testimonials

well..
im the old man..
who is optimistic through my face..
but a v emotional person in my heart..
im here..
to drop my every single feeling..
neither longing for attraction..
nor seeking for a solution..
just to express my deepest feeling of my heart..

p/s: Ap3KTunG